A couple weeks ago I tried to plant an herb garden, and last week I had to start it over. Most of the ground around our house is just clay, and I didn’t have the money to completely replace it with garden soil, so I tried mixing it up a bit.
Did not work.
So last week I went ahead and pulled it all out, put in mostly garden soil from Wal-mart, as well as some compost and replanted the four herb plants I had. We’re still waiting to see if they take, but so far it looks a tiny bit better.
I have mixed feelings about starting something over. On the one hand, I have a better idea of what I want now, and I feel like I can do a better job, so it’s exciting. On the other hand, it’s an admission of failure on my first attempt.
That admission feels worse if I find myself doing the thing this time around that I blew off last time. I knew better, but I didn’t want to do the work.
But I think starting over is a growing process, one that is important for the rest of our lives. It takes humility to acknowledge that we were wrong, and to take steps to undo it. It takes awareness to see failure, and see your faults.
Sometimes starting over is just part of life. Things go wrong, they break, they don’t work out; thus is life in a broken world. But sometimes it’s because we did not do something that we knew we should have.
So don’t be afraid to pick up an old project, or reevaluate a new one. Start over if you have to, there’s no shame in it. Either your fixing a mistake you made last time, or you’re finding a new way to grow.
On another note, I’ve been hard at work on a few projects that I plan on announcing next month. I want to make sure I’ve got everything in order before I share it with you all, but I’m pretty excited and hope you will be too!
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